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Friday, June 16, 2006

Fri, 16 Jun 2006 20:51:09 GMT

Well, I am still kicking, more or less. Paisley is amazing me with the things she picks up,and I can scarcely believe she will be 2 in 3 months time. Freaky.

As for me, I am happy and sore right now. On tuesday I started spotting, and then my period started up for real. It's pretty strong too. Yesterday I went shopping with Paisley and Alex (my brother) and while we wereout I soaked through 4 super plus tampons! It freaked me out...if it hadn't stopped I would have gone to the doctor. Sorry if it's TMI, but it's not a good thing when after about 20 minutes the tampon slips out on it's own!! It's settled though, and I am psyched about having another period, I am just aching to get pg again.

In other news, Paisley has ezcema. Ugh. It's on her hand, kind of running down her thumb and wrist. It's on her other hand too, and I see a very faint rash on other parts of her body. So now I need to findout what might be causing it...and to find out about it more in general. Ugh. The doc gave us a scrip for hydrocortisone cream, which I will be filling out asap...I forgot the scrip card, so I needed to come back to it

Paul got a bonus this payday of $1000, so that was very nice. I bought clothes for me and Paisley, and she also got a new pair of shoes that she loves so much she wore them to bed for her nap the other day. Paul bought a couple games, and we bought some movies too. So it was nice.

Alex is living here and it's pretty cool, he got a job with a contractor here in town, so it's all settled.

Well, Paisley needs a nap now! So yeah, some good news and some not so bad news. If anyone has any advice about the ezcema, help would be appreciated.

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Tue, 23 May 2006 02:16:44 GMT

Well, I am still sleeping horribly. It seems that I am just not tired when it comes time for bed...or when Paisley naps either...I'm just not tired in general. Same with food, nothing appeals to me, and if it does when I get it, it doesn't. I am NOT pg...trust me on that one...so I am wondering if I am psyching myself out about it? I don't know. I get up, usually feeling a bit tired but nothing like I should...and I go about doing things and then hours later I realize that I haven't eaten. Oh, I've thought about eating, but nothing is appealling anf there are other things that need doing, so I do them, thinking I will be hungry soon. Umm, no. Too bad so sad.

So yeah, that is me lately, tired, hungry and unable to sleep or eat. I'm also cranky...but then I've been spotting off and on for a few weeks, thinking that my period is coming, but it never does. Still only had 2 cycles pp, so it's not like it's a big shock. Still, this constant crankiness is wearing on me.

Paul is on vacation this week and I hope it goes well. I have been fed up with him lately too, and I know part of it is because he has been so busy and not home, but when he is home, he just gets on my nerves. Am I crazy?? But I need the help with Paisley. Problem is, he STILL won't take the inititive, even though I have asked and he has said he will repeatedly. I know he is a man, but if his boss asked him to do it he would right?? So why so hard for him to entertain Paisley when I am cooking, or doing anything in general??

Video games. Ugh. That's it. I know this is the first opportunity he has had to play in a while, but Paisley and I are here too, and we need him more than the PS2 does yk?

Well, on that happy note I am going to leave it. Thanks for letting me vent. Ugh.

Friday, May 19, 2006

Fri, 19 May 2006 02:21:01 GMT

Oi, here we go again.

We're still doing great around here, we have been spending alot of time outside and with my brother who has moved here. I'm still feeling anti social, I'm not sure why, but I'm certainly not depressed, I feel great. I guess I had to make a break from the computer sometime, so it's agood thing. I'm surprised at how it happened, but who I am to look a gift horse in the mouth?? SO yeah.

Paisley is 20 months and is amazing, she is such a sponge, it's crazy. She makes my heart happy and my days fly by. Paul is still working like crazy, but he will be on vacation next week, so we are looking forward to that. Alex is busy trying to get a job.

I love my backyard now, and generally spend alot of time there. All I need now is a laptop with wireless internet.

Anyway, I am still kicking! We'll be around.

Monday, May 01, 2006

Mon, 01 May 2006 14:52:13 GMT

Well, it has officially been forever since I updated, we've been crazy busy, here's the story in a peanut shell of what's been up around here.

Paul has been working some long hours, he works anywhere from 10 to 12 hours a day at work...usually the 10. "We" have taken over the 4plex, and since one tenant moved out Paul has been cleaning paiting, and putting floors in, which he is just finishing today. He has been leaving for work, coming home and eating and leaving again. On our anniversary, which was last wed, he only went out for an hour, but still. He now has another unit to paint and prep by the 15th, and one more at the end of the month, so we've just been run ragged and it looks like continuing.

Paisley is hitting her stride in sepreation anxiety, and it's really hard for me to get alot done right now. Plus I have been feeling a bit ill, just generally yuckiness, I have no appetite at all, and it's all I can do to make sure Paisley is fed well...food ugh. As a result I think I have lost some weight, but I'm not too hapy about it, it's the wrong way to do it. I have insomnia too...you think I would be able to post, but I've just not been able to work up the motivation to spend the time typing. Sorry ladies.

Paisley is also teething more and wanting more and trying to do more, and for the most part succeedding brilliantly, but it's alot of effort right now keeping her safe and somewhat happy.

I have been reading online, trying to keep more or less up with happenings, but not all that well, I've kinda took a wee break from the net while all this has been up, and I feel like a git for not telling anyone, it really wasn't on purpose, just kinda happened yk? Okay, so my lack if communication is just not on, but I only a bit guilty, I needed the break.

I'm still not giong to be around a ton right now, what with all that's coming up, but I at least will make a major effort to blog it out.

The weather is lovely here and Paisley is getting a ton of time outside. We have also been visiting alot, that's nice, I am trying to keep Paisley busy...it doesn't help her behavior to have the added issue of Daddy being gone so much, she misses him terribly.

We will be getting a nice bunch of cash coming in though. We are actually going shopping for a new bike for Paul tonight and maybe a dvd or something...we are getting $300 from the work he's doing now, plus the usual $100 for the month, then in 2 weeks anoth $300 and then again at the end of the month.Our landlord also wants Paul to rebuild the fence out front and he will, just not before June. Oh, and he has a weeks vacation at the end of may, but now he has to spend part of it painting the only unit on 4th that isn't being rented out...so in a month and a half he will have done all 4 units, poor boy, he works 50 hours a week already at his normal job.

My brother is moving up soon, probably next week and I have been getting things ready for him too. I have got the boy hooked on Harry Potter now, like every sensible person, he resisted, but I am a Gryffindor, and we don't just give up. So he's seen the movies (mine, I can't believe I lent all four to him, this is what stupid Gryffindors do for a cause, and I have been craving them lately something fierce.) I wish maybe I'd just kept Prisoner of Azkaban, it's my fave, but then that would suck for him. Oh well, soon he'll be here and I'll have my ~~babies~~ moveis back. I am looking forward to someone else to speculate with I am full of things to talk to him about, our phone conversations have already gone into areas I hadn't with Paul, and I am loving it. I miss my Alex.

So there you have it, things have been nutters around here. In other news I just started af, I knew that I was not pg, it was just taking forever, something like 64 days in that cycle ugh. Paisley is eating a ton more solids though, so I am hoping that will help.

So there's your update from my hobbit hole, sorry I've been out of it, but it happens some times. If anyone wants too, feel free to email me rosietook76@hotmail.com

Monday, April 10, 2006

Mon, 10 Apr 2006 17:25:43 GMT

which Friends character are you?

you're monica...a perfectionist who's ALWAYS cleaning. there's no one you love more than your friends...unless they spill cookie crumbs on the couch.
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Sunday, April 09, 2006

Sun, 09 Apr 2006 06:05:12 GMT

Wow, it's been way too long since I blogged at all...I've been tired and feeling lousy, not too tired to type, but to tired to think I guess. So here's what's up.

Paisley is starting to talk a bit, her words are coming more clear...she will say something and I can tell that she's working on getting the proper word out. Practice, practice. I've been telling her that she needs to start talking because she can't grunt and point forever, I am not living with Tim Allen!! She signs please all the time now, but I don't know for what. she'll sign please and I'm like what do you want, and she just keeps signing. That's when I tell her she needs to talk, cause I can't help her if she won't tell me.

We have fixed up the backyard alot, we have a small wooden table with 2 benches on one side, and the garden box on the other. I have started a bunch of seeds in cardboard egg cartons, and will plant them when they sprout. The garden box has good rich soil too. I am going to plant some asparagus in pots, it takes 3 years to get anything edible and I have no idea where we will be then, likely still here, but I don't know, so they can move with us in posts until we are sure where we will be. No need to plant them, I figure I want to start now though, instead of waiting till we are permanent and then having to wait 3 more years for asparagus.

Paul did a really big prune on the trees in our yard, and now there is actually LIGHT coming in, it's amazing the difference just taking the branches up 6 feet has made. It's bright and airy now instead of feeling like a small dungeon, and we will be able to grow more veggies now that we have light in the yard. Not to mention grass. We have already eaten dinner outside a few times, and now I need a bbq! We'll be getting a couch first though. Shannon, our neighbor told me that we have the best yard in the place and I was amazed because it has no grass and there is still so much to do. But we worked hard to get it like this, and we keep working at it. We take pride in our surroundings, and even if our place is not the nicest we are continually trying to make it better, so that's why our yard is so nice now. No broken furniture and garbage in our yard, just nice useful thing and a place for Paisley to play.

I have been feeling ill, nauseous in mornings and tired and cranky and irritable, just beat all around. I have taken 2 pg tests this last week and they were both negative, I am not pg, just waiting for af to come. Waiting for my cycles to become normal.

Well my fingers are seizing up, so I am going to rest them...maybe I'll type more before bed if they start to cooperate.

Monday, April 03, 2006

Mon, 03 Apr 2006 04:16:24 GMT

Well, sleep is getting easier to come by. Paul has been putting Paisley to sleep and she is going down for him in no time flat. Seriously, he takes her up, screaming usually, and then 5 minutes later she is asleep. He lays her down and before he is even settled, she crawls onto his chest and zonks right out. She is sleeping longer and better too. Needless to say, I am very happy and so is Paul, cause it's easy for him now and takes less time, plus she is snugglier to him and more attatched to him during the day. No less attatched to me though. It's a win-win. And it's obvious she was ready. I am so very happy. *sighs*

Shannon, the lady next door, came over tonight with her 5 week old, and we have been friendly and visited a bit, but I think this visit really pushed us over the edge. She is such a sweetheart and her daughter is too. I helped her out a bit with breastfeeding, and helped diagnose thrush for her, so she will be fixing that starting tomorrow. Plus she got a brand new sling after seeing mine and I helped show her how to use it, she is really excited. We plan on taking the girls downtown, just for a stroll, and she is looking forward to carrying A in the sling the whole time.

We had the same midwife, so that was cool, and we think alot of the same. I lent her Bestfeeding, which was probably the best bf book I have ever seen, and also the Baby Sleep Book by the Sears. A has her own room, but sleeps with mommy, so I am encouraged by that. Also she is against Vaxes too...not having done alot of research, but just feeling that they are wrong, she's got great intuition. So I am going to help her out with a bunch of info.

She lent me Spiritual Midwifery, which I am very excited to read, and I am looking forward to hanging out alot more. So yeah, it was a great night, and we chatted for 3 hours. Woot!

Paul and I are off tomorrow to get Paisley new shoes and do a bit of shopping, so that will be nice. Paisley is bathed and in bed already, so I am free all night! Woot again!

Sunday, April 02, 2006

Sun, 02 Apr 2006 20:08:02 GMT

the Romantic
Test finished!

you chose BY - your Enneagram type is FOUR.

"I am unique"

Romantics have sensitive feelings and are warm and perceptive.

How to Get Along with Me

Give me plenty of compliments. They mean a lot to me.
Be a supportive friend or partner. Help me to learn to love and value myself.
Respect me for my special gifts of intuition and vision.
Though I don't always want to be cheered up when I'm feeling melancholy, I sometimes like to have someone lighten me up a little.
Don't tell me I'm too sensitive or that I'm overreacting!

What I Like About Being a Four

my ability to find meaning in life and to experience feeling at a deep level
my ability to establish warm connections with people
admiring what is noble, truthful, and beautiful in life
my creativity, intuition, and sense of humor
being unique and being seen as unique by others
having aesthetic sensibilities
being able to easily pick up the feelings of people around me

What's Hard About Being a Four

experiencing dark moods of emptiness and despair
feelings of self-hatred and shame; believing I don't deserve to be loved
feeling guilty when I disappoint people
feeling hurt or attacked when someone misundertands me
expecting too much from myself and life
fearing being abandoned
obsessing over resentments
longing for what I don't have

Fours as Children Often

have active imaginations: play creatively alone or organize playmates in original game s
are very sensitive
feel that they don't fit in
believe they are missing something that other people have
attach themselves to idealized teachers, heroes, artists, etc.
become antiauthoritarian or rebellious when criticized or not understood
feel lonely or abandoned (perhaps as a result of a death or their parents' divorce)

Fours as Parents

help their children become who they really are
support their children's creativity and originality
are good at helping their children get in touch with their feelings
are sometimes overly critical or overly protective
are usually very good with children if not too self-absorbed

Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele

The Enneagram Made Easy
Discover the 9 Types of People
HarperSanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages

You liked the test? so please RATE it...
but remember! it had only two questions!!!

You are not completely happy with the result?!
You chose BY

Would you rather have chosen:

AY (EIGHT)

CY (SIX)

BX (NINE)

BZ (FIVE)

My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 26% on ABC

You scored higher than 54% on XYZ

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Friday, March 31, 2006

Fri, 31 Mar 2006 05:45:02 GMT

NIH panel finds no extra risk in Caesarian Section.

I think I am going to be sick.

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Thu, 30 Mar 2006 21:48:22 GMT

What Pattern Are You?