Well, I am still kicking, more or less. Paisley is amazing me with the things she picks up,and I can scarcely believe she will be 2 in 3 months time. Freaky.

As for me, I am happy and sore right now. On tuesday I started spotting, and then my period started up for real. It's pretty strong too. Yesterday I went shopping with Paisley and Alex (my brother) and while we wereout I soaked through 4 super plus tampons! It freaked me out...if it hadn't stopped I would have gone to the doctor. Sorry if it's TMI, but it's not a good thing when after about 20 minutes the tampon slips out on it's own!! It's settled though, and I am psyched about having another period, I am just aching to get pg again.

In other news, Paisley has ezcema. Ugh. It's on her hand, kind of running down her thumb and wrist. It's on her other hand too, and I see a very faint rash on other parts of her body. So now I need to findout what might be causing it...and to find out about it more in general. Ugh. The doc gave us a scrip for hydrocortisone cream, which I will be filling out asap...I forgot the scrip card, so I needed to come back to it

Paul got a bonus this payday of $1000, so that was very nice. I bought clothes for me and Paisley, and she also got a new pair of shoes that she loves so much she wore them to bed for her nap the other day. Paul bought a couple games, and we bought some movies too. So it was nice.

Alex is living here and it's pretty cool, he got a job with a contractor here in town, so it's all settled.

Well, Paisley needs a nap now! So yeah, some good news and some not so bad news. If anyone has any advice about the ezcema, help would be appreciated.

Currently Listening Vs. By Pearl Jam Daughter see related

Well, I am still sleeping horribly. It seems that I am just not tired when it comes time for bed...or when Paisley naps either...I'm just not tired in general. Same with food, nothing appeals to me, and if it does when I get it, it doesn't. I am NOT pg...trust me on that one...so I am wondering if I am psyching myself out about it? I don't know. I get up, usually feeling a bit tired but nothing like I should...and I go about doing things and then hours later I realize that I haven't eaten. Oh, I've thought about eating, but nothing is appealling anf there are other things that need doing, so I do them, thinking I will be hungry soon. Umm, no. Too bad so sad.

So yeah, that is me lately, tired, hungry and unable to sleep or eat. I'm also cranky...but then I've been spotting off and on for a few weeks, thinking that my period is coming, but it never does. Still only had 2 cycles pp, so it's not like it's a big shock. Still, this constant crankiness is wearing on me.

Paul is on vacation this week and I hope it goes well. I have been fed up with him lately too, and I know part of it is because he has been so busy and not home, but when he is home, he just gets on my nerves. Am I crazy?? But I need the help with Paisley. Problem is, he STILL won't take the inititive, even though I have asked and he has said he will repeatedly. I know he is a man, but if his boss asked him to do it he would right?? So why so hard for him to entertain Paisley when I am cooking, or doing anything in general??

Video games. Ugh. That's it. I know this is the first opportunity he has had to play in a while, but Paisley and I are here too, and we need him more than the PS2 does yk?

Well, on that happy note I am going to leave it. Thanks for letting me vent. Ugh.

Currently Watching Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (Two-Disc Special Edition) (Harry Potter 4) see related

Oi, here we go again.

We're still doing great around here, we have been spending alot of time outside and with my brother who has moved here. I'm still feeling anti social, I'm not sure why, but I'm certainly not depressed, I feel great. I guess I had to make a break from the computer sometime, so it's  agood thing. I'm surprised at how it happened, but who I am to look a gift horse in the mouth?? SO yeah.

Paisley is 20 months and is amazing, she is such a sponge, it's crazy. She makes my heart happy and my days fly by. Paul is still working like crazy, but he will be on vacation next week, so we are looking forward to that. Alex is busy trying to get a job.

I love my backyard now, and generally spend alot of time there. All I need now is a laptop with wireless internet.

Anyway, I am still kicking! We'll be around.

Currently Listening Learning to Breathe By Switchfoot see related

Well, it has officially been forever since I updated, we've been crazy busy, here's the story in a peanut shell of what's been up around here.

Paul has been working some long hours, he works anywhere from 10 to 12 hours a day at work...usually the 10. "We" have taken over the 4plex, and since one tenant moved out Paul has been cleaning paiting, and putting floors in, which he is just finishing today. He has been leaving for work, coming home and eating and leaving again. On our anniversary, which was last wed, he only went out for an hour, but still. He now has another unit to paint and prep by the 15th, and one more at the end of the month, so we've just been run ragged and it looks like continuing.

Paisley is hitting her stride in sepreation anxiety, and it's really hard for me to get alot done right now. Plus I have been feeling a bit ill, just generally yuckiness, I have no appetite at all, and it's all I can do to make sure Paisley is fed well...food ugh. As a result I think I have lost some weight, but I'm not too hapy about it, it's the wrong way to do it. I have insomnia too...you think I would be able to post, but I've just not been able to work up the motivation to spend the time typing. Sorry ladies.

Paisley is also teething more and wanting more and trying to do more, and for the most part succeedding brilliantly, but it's alot of effort right now keeping her safe and somewhat happy.

I have been reading online, trying to keep more or less up with happenings, but not all that well, I've kinda took a wee break from the net while all this has been up, and I feel like a git for not telling anyone, it really wasn't on purpose, just kinda happened yk? Okay, so my lack if communication is just not on, but I only a bit guilty, I needed the break.

I'm still not giong to be around a ton right now, what with all that's coming up, but I at least will make a major effort to blog it out.

The weather is lovely here and Paisley is getting a ton of time outside. We have also been visiting alot, that's nice, I am trying to keep Paisley busy...it doesn't help her behavior to have the added issue of Daddy being gone so much, she misses him terribly.

We will be getting a nice bunch of cash coming in though. We are actually going shopping for a new bike for Paul tonight and maybe a dvd or something...we are getting $300 from the work he's doing now, plus the usual $100 for the month, then in 2 weeks anoth $300 and then again at the end of the month.Our landlord also wants Paul to rebuild the fence out front and he will, just not before June. Oh, and he has a weeks vacation at the end of may, but now he has to spend part of it painting the only unit on 4th that isn't being rented out...so in a month and a half he will have done all 4 units, poor boy, he works 50 hours a week already at his normal job.

My brother is moving up soon, probably next week and I have been getting things ready for him too. I have got the boy hooked on Harry Potter now, like every sensible person, he resisted, but I am a Gryffindor, and we don't just give up. So he's seen the movies (mine, I can't believe I lent all four to him, this is what stupid Gryffindors do for a cause, and I have been craving them lately something fierce.) I wish maybe I'd just kept Prisoner of Azkaban, it's my fave, but then that would suck for him. Oh well, soon he'll be here and I'll have my babies moveis back. I am looking forward to someone else to speculate with I am full of things to talk to him about, our phone conversations have already gone into areas I hadn't with Paul, and I am loving it. I miss my Alex.

So there you have it, things have been nutters around here. In other news I just started af, I knew that I was not pg, it was just taking forever, something like 64 days in that cycle ugh. Paisley is eating a ton more solids though, so I am hoping that will help.

So there's your update from my hobbit hole, sorry I've been out of it, but it happens some times. If anyone wants too, feel free to email me rosietook76@hotmail.com